Awareness (self) and LOVE @ first sight.

 

How do you really define or understand AWARENESS?

When your observation is without any judgment, without any thought and without any preconceived notion, that moment might be defined as awareness. So, being fully conscious of one’s whole process of thinking, and being able to go beyond that process, is awareness.

Seeing or understanding is not a matter of time, it is not a matter of gradations. Either you see or you don’t see, you must look at the fact without thought. Then there is awareness, a state of attention without a center, without frontiers, where the known doesn’t interfere.

There is understanding only when there is stillness, when there is silent observation, passive awareness. Then only the problem yields its full significance. The awareness of which I speak is of what is from moment to moment, of the activities of thought and its subtle deceptions, fears and hopes. Choice less awareness wholly dissolves our conflicts and miseries.

To keep awareness for longer period of time is highly impossible unless you are a gifted individual, so in a nutshell awareness is alive within the moments of real fast pace.

When you see a tree, behind that observation our thought is running, so our mind is not still, so we may find that moment great or worse based on our thought process and our mental state at that moment. But if we are self aware at that point of time the seeing experience will be different for good or for worse.

Love at first sight might be the example of self-awareness itself, when you fell in love your observations

are without any thought and you may be dumbfounded by that moment or merely by observation, when your mind is still and some of these moments will be  so intense that it  will imprint on your psyche for rest of your life and beyond.

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मैंने  जिन्दगी को कभी , इतने करीब  से न देखा

जब देखा तो मेरा देखना ही, मुझसे न देखा गया ,

हजारों आसुओं  से सींचा जिसे , वो कैसे  मुरझा  गया

इस तरह मेरा मुस्कराना , मुझसे ही देखा न गया.

जिन उम्मीदों  से , मैंने तुझे इस कदर  तरासा
टूट कर मेरा ही बिखरना , मुझसे देखा न गया.

एक तड़प  थी हमेशा , मेरी हर सिरकत में
इतना बेपनाह सकूंन  देख कर , मुझसे देखा  न गया .

तुझे  आज  तक  चाहकर  भी,  अपने से जुदा न कर पाया
भरी महफ़िल में तेरा   इतना तिरस्कार ,  मुझसे देखा न गया.

एक हलचल थी हमेशा , तेरी हर एक हरकत में

तुझे इस कदर अकेला  मायूस पाकर , मुझसे देखा न गया.

Why Federer is so dominant on indoor hard courts. (According to me..)

Roger finished 2011 season with a high note winning at O2 arena, after finishing a season without a grand  slam  this year, He is 17-0  after the US open, was just a shot away then, going to the US OPEN FINALS last month.

What makes Roger so dominant on indoor hard courts is primarily speed of the courts. Usually indoor hard courts are pretty fast with a surface of lower bounce, Paris masters 2011 was the exception though.

Top spin always gives Roger some trouble, his matches with Nadal were the examples of  severity of  the trouble, even this year O2 arena match with Ferrer , he had some trouble with topspin in the first set.

But hard courts usually do not give extra juice to topspin as a result ball  does not jump that high and it sits well on attacking (firing)  line  of Roger's specially on Backhand side.

·         If you have been watching matches closely this year (last couple of weeks) , Roger was standing right on the baseline and reluctant to fall behind the baseline, most of deep balls he usually plays half volley or on the rise . It does two things in my opinion ; one takes time away from your opponent and you are still standing on base line and you have an upper hand in the rallies. 

·         But if you watch him on grass or clay he cannot guard baseline that dominantly because of uneven bounce of those courts. So low bounce of these courts and not so frequent uneven bounce of these hard courts certainly help him in that sense.

·         Another reason is backhand slice, which he did not use effectively this year but specially in Paris and O2 courts, backhand slice stayed very low and hard to attack, which he used very effectively  this year’s ATP finals.  

·         Court positioning, as I mentioned earlier Roger was standing near the baseline and tried to stay there as much as he could. It also gave him ample time to crowd the net quickly for volleys.

·         His backhand was crisp in all these three tournaments Basel, Paris and London ATP finals 2011.

·         He served very high percentage first serve in last three weeks, which actually gave him some free points on serve. All in all , his forehand was lethal and serves were good enough, which were points of concern this year especially in pressure situation.

Roger mixed his backhand shot selction in the O2 finals , with backhand topspin and slice ofcourse , but in second set against Joe's 135 mph first serve backhand topspin did not work(I Think), so in third set all the retun of serve were backhand slices (worked like a charm I guess) , so may be some work needed in that front for Roger but this is only my observation.

Federer looked really rejuvenated and looked his oldself now, watch out for 2012..King is back.

Aware..

 
you would know the secret of death.
But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life?
These are the famous lines by Khalil Zibran.

But seriously and take a look at it with different perspective and there will be
some other passages for  ideas that actually opens up.

You cannot be frightened of the unknown because you do not know what the unknown is and so there is nothing to be afraid of. Death is a word, and it is the word, the image, that creates fear. So can you look at death without the image of death?
As long as the image exists from which springs thought, thought must always create fear. Then you either rationalize your fear of death and build a resistance against the inevitable or you invent innumerable beliefs to protect you from the fear of death. Hence there is a gap between you and the thing of which you are afraid.

In this time-space interval there must be conflict which is fear, anxiety and self-pity. Thought, which breeds the fear of death, says, 'Let's postpone it, let's avoid it, keep it as far away as possible, let's not think about it'- but you are thinking about it. .

Most of us are frightened of dying because we don't know what it means to live. We don't know how to live, therefore we don't know how to die. As long as we are frightened of life we shall be frightened of death. The man who is not frightened of life is not frightened of being completely insecure for he understands that inwardly, psychologically, there is no security. When there is no security there is an endless movement and then life and death are the same. The man who lives without conflict, who lives with beauty and love, is not frightened of death because to love is to die.

The core of Hindu mythology is, your attachment to this world is root cause of your fear of death, but if you live fully in this world and you somehow enjoy the beauty of life  then death is merely an event for you.





जिन्दगी है इस कदर उलझी हुयी, कि मैं  आहें  भरता हूँ छुप कर  

वक़्त  है इस कदर हावी  हम पर , कि मैं सांस लेता हूँ गिन कर.  

मेरे वक़्त को तूने   लिख दिया , रूक जा.. ,  कई बार  सोच कर

सवाल एक ही  है तुझसे, क्यों दिया ये  दर्द ,  जिन्दगी दे  कर .

पल गुजरे जैसे  शामे  उल्फत में हमेशा , चैन कभी न मिला उम्र भर  

ऐ मददे  खुदा  मुझे जिन्दगी न लौटा ,पर  कुछ पल लौटा दे सोच कर. 

तूने दी मोहब्बत ,  जिन्दादिली , पर बेरहमी की संतुष्टि,  न दे कर

अगली मर्तबा   नहीं चाहिए संकल्प  , बस संयम देना सोच कर.  

जिन्दा रहे जिन्दादिली में , मशगूल  रहे उम्र भर, एक सच को भूल कर
तेरी एक इसी भूल ने , हजारों को कहा अलविदा , बस एक तेरे को छोड़ कर.

मौत के साथ ही खत्म  हो गए, ये सारे सिलसिले , बस एक लम्हे को छोड़ कर 
जिसे न उजाड़ पाया  जिन्दगी का सच, उसे मौत छोड़ देगी , कुछ सोच कर .   

 

           

          

तलाश

प्रतिबिम्ब/(reflection);

विभ्रम /(hallucinated)

अब तो मौजूदगी का अहसास भी नहीं होता ,उनको छूकर भी

मुझे उन तमाम सर्द रातों ने, इस कदर बेरूखा बना दिया.

अब तो सुबह को  भी रात   का ही, प्रतिबिम्ब नजर आता है

अँधेरी तमाम  रातों ने इसकदर, मुझे आधा अधूरा  बना  दिया.

अपने ही  शहर के इन चौराहों   में, अब रास्तों  का पता नहीं मिलता
मुझे भूले कुछ बेवजह रास्तों ने , एकदम  विभ्रम  बना दिया.

सवालों के हुजूम में ,चिर परिचित  जिन्दगी एक पहेली बन गयी

मुझे झकझोरते  कुछ चंद  सवालों ने, एकदम  बेसहारा  बना दिया.

उस दर की तलाश में , मैंने हजारों लम्हों  को कहा अलविदा    

उस करिश्मे की तलाश ने, मुकद्दर को एक हादसा बना दिया.

उसको पाने की तलाश ने, मुझे अलग किया मेरे साये से
सारी उम्र चलते चलते, मेरा साया,मेरी शामों में छुप गया.

                                                  

  

आदिल (just)





जान कर  तुझे अपना,  मैं  बेफ़िक्र  समन्दर में मिल गया

मुझे मौजों ने डूबा   दिया, तुझे  किनारा मिल गया .   

तेरी बातों  से,  तेरी फितरत  का  कभी  पता ही न मिला

तुझे  दरकार थी  हमदर्द की ,  हमने हमसफ़र  समझ लिया.

न दूंगा दोष तुझको,  और तेरी उस तहरीरे नीयत को
मैं तो था अचेतन,  पर तुझे तो इस  दिल की खबर  होगी.

काश!  कभी बातों बातों  में,  तुमने  हाले दिल बयां किया होता

कि इस बेवफा  समन्दर में,  हर एक गिरा आंसू  मोती नहीं होता.    

हर एक गुजरा  पल, शाने  चराग और आदिल  नहीं होता
और डूबते हुए प्यार को कभी, तिनके का सहारा नहीं होता.

गैरत .... (self respect)

The World’s View of Self-Respect

Respect is defined in the following way: “To feel or show deferential regard for; esteem; to regard with honor; an attitude of admiration or esteem.” Knowing this, we can conclude that self-respect means to esteem or honor the self.
Now, one might ask, “What is wrong with respecting myself? If I don’t know how to respect myself, how can I show proper respect to others?” Is this a valid concern? Is it really necessary to respect yourself in order to respect others? What is the danger of respecting yourself?

We all place ourselves at various levels, and we are constantly falling from these heights. It is the falls we are ashamed of. Self-esteem is the cause of our shame, of our fall. It is this self-esteem that must be understood,

Why have you put yourself on a pedestal called self-esteem, human dignity, the ideal, and so on? If you can understand this, then there will be no shame of the past; it will have completely gone.
It is this avoidance of what is, of what you are, that brings about confusion and antagonism, shame and resentment.

Most commonly our  definition  for self respect is constantly changing  due to our constantly evolving  understanding of  society and our self.  But if  we want  respect for us and for our deeds , we need to
understand others and give them  fair share of respect they deserve. 

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जब   रास्ते   हो गए हों   इस कदर बेहया    

तो  तेरी अपनी  गैरत,  को राह पे छोड़  दे.  

जिस राह  पे अब, न मिलता हो वो सकूं .

तो  चलते हुए इस कदर अपनी आंखे मूँद ले. 

जिस  शहर  में , तू नहीं है,  बेइन्तहां भीड़  में 

तो उस शहर में   तो , जलसों से  दूर   रह .

जिस महफ़िल में , तेरी सिरकत  का,कोई  मोल नहीं, 

तो  उन मजलिशों  में  तू , एकदम बेफिक्र  मौन रह .

अगर तेरा साया , लुप्त   गया हो  तेरे  कदमों में,

तो  भाग कर किसी  ऊँचे   दरक्त    को खोज  ले.

अगर   फँस  गया    हो एक दर्दनाक तूफ़ान में

तो अपनी काल्पनिक  उड़ान के पंखों को खोले ले.

अगर कोई नहीं देता मायने , तेरी आहट को

तो  एकदम दबे पावों से , उतरना सीख ले.

अगर   मिल गया  हो तेरा प्यार तुझे अचानक

तो   अपनी  गैरत, को  दुबारा से, टटोल    ले. 

Federer - may need a fire in his belly for US open.

What really made me worrisome in his recent losses like he did not care enough inside/outside of the court to change the outcome and the fire inside the belly was not simply present. I am not undermining his ability to win still or his enormous talent.

Recently Ryan Harrison made similar comments about champ, which were not apprpriate though.. 

But the intense keenness to win matches was not there simply might be he is saving it for slams and I am one big fan of his ability and craftiness to win points.

What really concerned me is his return game in all these losses and his serve simply cracked when he needed it most, so may be self belief is also hurting a little bit and who knows may be he is hiding some injuries.

 

The unequivocal lines from the movie Gladiator haunt me as I wonder if I am witnessing the end of a tennis era.The majority of the tennis world certainly hopes not but fear age and on court miles are catching up with our tennis hero.

This was cruelly emphasized by Jo-Wilfred Tsonga at the Rogers Cup in Montreal, as he dispatched of Roger Federer for a second time this year including a crumbling third set in which the legend almost went without a game.

Most observers want to believe that Federer is still the best and most feared player on the planet. They still want to see him glide through tournaments without the loss of even a solitary set. Even if he does lose a match we want to find a good excuse. The mind still somewhat believes that it is 2006 and Federer has just won Wimbledon, following this he takes the Canadian title then goes on to clinch the U.S. Open. It’s supposed to be Rogers Cup at the Rogers Cup. Every cup is supposed to be Rogers Cup.

In truth Federer has not won a tournament since January.  He is suffering. He looks beatable and might be trying too hard to capture his old form. We wonder if he should retire but we would rather believe he can hold on like Sampras and get one more slam? We don’t want to see him hang up his racquet. And when he does leave us we want him to leave as number one. But the miles he has tread are catching up on him. He’s plus thirty now. He’s married with kids. Its tougher for him.

Now sadly, we are all making excuses for him.

I wish him all the best for US open starting from Cincy tournament, Delpo is his second round challenge  and may be winning this one he can ride a confidence wave going in to Us open. All the very best Roger.

Self Deception

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The fundamental factor of self-deception is this constant desire to be something in this world and in the world hereafter. So we begin to deceive ourselves the moment there is this urge to be, to become or to achieve. 

     Truth is not something to be gained. Love cannot come to those who have a desire to hold on to it, or who like to become identified with it. Surely such things come when the mind does not seek, when the mind is completely quiet, no longer creating movements and beliefs upon which it can depend, or from which it derives a certain strength, which is an indication of self-deception. It is only when the mind understands this whole process of desire that it can be still. Only then is the mind not in movement to be or not to be; then only is there the possibility of a state in which there is no deception of any kind.

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बदगुमानी - suspiciousness

अश्क         -  Tears

तर्क           -  Arguments

भ्रमित       -  confuse

दौर-ए-आसमानी  -  flying high

किये बेंइन्तहां तर्क , हमने उनसे और  जमाने से 

हम  आज भी हैं भ्रमित, उनकी इस कहानी  से.   

हुआ है आहत तन बदन, उनकी  तनहाई  से 

दिले  ज़ख़्म फिर हरे हो गए हैं अश्क  के पानी से.

ढलके  हैं अश्क मेरे , शब्-ए-गम  भरी रवानी से
दर्द के चिराग  हम ने जलाये, अश्क के पानी से. 

न काम आई मेरी  जुर्रते  लब-ए-इज़हार
वो बदगुमान ही हुआ मेरी खुशबयानी से.

 

मैं चाहता हूँ तुम्हारा भरम रहे बरकरार 

निकाल दो मेरे  साये  को इस कहानी से.

मुझे  भी  जुल्म और दरिंदगी  का  अगया  है  हुनर
मिला  कमाल   ये  तुम्हारी ही  मेहेरबानी  से.

किसी  से कुछ  न  कहा  और  कह  दिया  सब  कुछ 
जुबान  का काम  लिया  मैंने   बेजुबानी  से.

अभी  इस ज़मी  से नहीं  मेरा  वास्ता उस कदर
गुज़र  रहा  हूँ  अभी  दौर-ए-आसमानी  से . 

सिर्फ नफरत...

It’s really a mystery, how do you perceive and experience the magic word attraction. Different people find different people (different aspects) attractive and they are just love struck by it at first sight. It all depends what is your perception of beauty and how did  you really build a definition unconsciously around it.

It’s all depends how the persona is built over the years, childhood experiences and of course genetic code. Some people are just dumbfounded by good deeds and some are more particular about personal appearances. Sheer talent you possess attracts some and some are attracted by your physical attributes and athletic build.

All in all it is really hard code to break, sometimes you struck by the beauty and you hardly realized it. Passion is the word we use more often but seldom can we define it?

Sometimes all the particulars suit your definition but your mind tells you something else.So bottom line is – मोहब्बत में वही एक  नजर चाहिए.  

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ख़ुलूस           - sincerity

तजे -तरार      - smart

मुस्तकबिल    - future

पुरकशिश       - attractive

साहिल          - shore

माझी            - past

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तुम्हारी   आँखों  में  कभी,   वो समंदर नहीं देखा 

तुम्हारी   बातों   में कभी,   वो मंजर नहीं देखा 

तुम्हारी अदाओं में कभी,  वो आसमाँ नहीं देखा 

तुम्हारे इरादों में कभी,  अपना   सपना  नहीं देखा 

तुम्हारे नजदीक रह कर भी,  कभी  तुमको नहीं देखा 

तुम्हारे दरमियाँ  रूक कर,   कभी साहिल नहीं देखा 

तुम्हारे महफिले खुलूस  में,  कभी आमंत्रण नहीं देखा 

और तुम्हारे दर्दे बयानी में, कभी समझौता  नहीं देखा.  

तुम्हारे तजे-तरार में, कभी  संयम नहीं देखा

तुम्हारे मुस्तकबिल में, कभी तेरा माझी नहीं देखा.

तेरी पुरकशिश में, कभी संतुलन नहीं देखा

और तेरे दहकते जिस्म में, कभी सम्मोहन नहीं देखा.

तेरी किसी नजर में भी, कभी सकूंन नहीं देखा

और तेरी किसी शरारत में, कभी  बचपन नहीं देखा.

तेरी इन हजारों  अदाओं को, मैंने कभी क्यों नहीं देखा 

और तेरी इन  बेइन्तहां कलाओं को, मैंने कैसे नहीं देखा. 

लगता है अपनी  नजरों में,  मैंने खुद  को ही नहीं देखा 

जिन दिलों में हो सिर्फ  नफरत, उसने मोहब्बत को नहीं देखा.  

   

  

वो गुजरे पल ...

All beautiful images seldom are reminiscent of  the past, we always care for beautiful past but the moments that give us shivers are not always unforgettable moments.  In any situation those moments, which had, deep imprints on your mind and psyche are the moments that actually will shake you up in few times in life.

Keep those moments close to your heart and you always learn a lesson or two from it. 

You will have plenty of worthy moments in your lifetime, but very few will have a deep impact and imprint on you.

----------------------------------------------आमीन    - Amen

एकाकी    - Alone

वस्ल      - Meeting with lover

अविरल   - Continuous

फलसफा - Philosophy (loaned from  Greek language) 

इस पल के गुजर जाने से,  नहीं बदलेगा एकदम सब कुछ

फ़साने और भी होंगे, सजायें और भी होंगी और बहाने और भी होंगे.

जिस सरलता से गुजर गया वो, एक बेपरवाह और एक सरल पल

जीवन के इस भंवर में, सदायें और भी होंगी और ज़माने और भी होंगे.

जिन पलों को में आज भी दूंढता हूँ,  उन ऊँची एकाकी सरहदों में 

संभल के अगर चला तो,  सरहदें और भी होंगी और शिखर और भी होंगे.

कुछ  अनकहे  पल,  कुछ बिखरी  यादें ,  कुछ लम्हे अविरल अनछुए  से

इन ढलती हुई शामों में,  मंजिलें  और भी  होंगी  और फलसफे  और भी होंगे

दिलो जिगर की ये  आवाज,  अगर आमीन  बनकर पहूँचती है वहाँ तक

गुजरे पल, मरहम भी होंगे, वस्ल की शामें भी होंगी और सहज कारवां भी होंगे.

Federer lOSS to Tsonga (WIMBLEDON 2011) - A perspective.

Woman's semis are over but there was still a lot of residual talk about Federer's loss Wednesday. And  the key stat: 11 unforced errors. To the Fed Lovers, this means that their man played well and was simply beaten by a player in the zone. To the more skeptical, it means that Federer was too passive and didn't go for his shots.

Most surprisingly Federer did not change anything in his game to come up with some solutions of his own,chip and charge and most importantly attack his backhand as Joe was doing to him.

I remembered one time in US open 2007, he was playing Lopez , Lopez won the first set, Federer was still going on his forehand, his(Lopez's) strength, Federer did not care, FED is stubborn sometimes, he wants to beat you  with his strength only but sometimes you need to play opponent's weakness.

Yesterday mostly he was mesmerized by level of Joe's play and probably was thinking Joe can not keep this level whole match. But you need to change your game plan, somehow all this happened too quickly for him.

Anyways Fed is playing real well and is in good form and he might get a shot at US open, where he might get good breaks and players from this continent only for his matches in that sense.

I don't think anyone was beating Tsonga the way he played yesterday. Those last 90 minutes comprised a tennis clinic. Sensational serving complemented by strong play in the rallies, strong returns and largely successful ventures to the net. But I can't help think: where were these "zone" matches against Federer in 2004-08? OK, the competition has gotten better and bolder lately. But how come Federer seldom, if ever, looked on helplessly as an opponent played lights out? He always seemed to have an answer. He also seemed to be able to ride out a hot set before prevailing. Yesterday, he seemed almost resigned that it wasn't his day.

The big question  is whether he'll win another Slam. I still say it's possible. You don't have to beat everyone in the field; you only have to beat the seven guys in front of you. Plus you can catch some real breaks. Look at Federer's 2009 Wimbledon draw, for instance, and tell me he wouldn't go through those opponents today. But it's looking like more and more has to go right for that to happen.

Crossroads.

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At some point in our lives, we are all faced with a crossroad of some type or another, when we really have to make a choice for good or bad.

What really give us the headway, are the people we really love and trust. But at times confusion sinks in and that mindset is hard to comprehend.

These inevitable turning points present positive opportunities to live life anew and recreate our lives. Our shared personal experiences, sage advice, and gentle guidance offer us the hope and faith we need in order to face our crossroads and soulfully traverse the roads of our lives.
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निस्तब्ध -  quiet

एहतराम -  respect /  honour
हुजूम      -  crowd
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जिस  मोड़ पे आकर,  मैं  हूँ  इस कदर  निस्तब्ध 

यहाँ  से राह मेरी  अब ,  और कैसे कोई  समझेगा.

राह जहाँ  भी जाती हो,  उसका  नहीं  है  एहतराम.

राह दिखाने  वाला मेरा अब, और कोई कैसे बनेगा.

मैंने  अब तक नहीं  बदली  राह, तेरी आवाज सुनकर
मेरी आवाज अब यहाँ, तेरे सिवा और कौन सुनेगा . 

भीड़ में छोड़ कर जिनको,  मैं  कर रहा था ये सफ़र

अब इस सफ़र मे हमसफ़र,  तेरे सिवा और कोई कैसे  बनेगा.

मेरे रास्ते वक़्त के साथ  हो गए हैं , इस कदर  संगीन  

मेरी जिन्दादिली का रहनुमा अब, कौन,क्यों और कैसे  बनेगा.

मैं इस crossroad पर  हूँ, खड़ा हूँ आँखें बंद करके

मेरे सफ़र  का मसीहा अब,   बस सिर्फ तू और तू ही बनेगा.

इस वीराने में , तेरे भरोसे  के सिवा कोई हुजूम नहीं दिखता 

तुझे मंजूर हो या नामंजूर , तेरा भरोसा ही मेरी तकदीर बनेगा.

  

  

          

बौखलाहट

आफताब - sun

 

इस निराले  शहर  में, इन  हवाओं  का भी   ऐतबार नहीं 

जिन  हवाओं  मे रफ़्तार ही  नहीं, वो कैसे तूफ़ान हो जायेगा.

    

 तेरी बौखलाहट  में, तेरे  दर का पता   मिलता ही नहीं   

 तू मिलने को बेकरार ही नहीं, तो कैसे सकूंन  मिल जाएगा.

 दिल में नफरत घोलकर  , तू  खोजता  है  राहेदिल कहीं  

 जो  मोहब्बत का  न हो सका , फिर तू उसका  कैसे  हो जायेगा. 

                                  

 दिन  दुपहरी , रात बीती और शामें कभी गुजरी नहीं   

 जो कभी जीता नहीं हो , वो कैसे सिकंदर हो जायेगा.

                                      

 जिन अंधेरों में तू, मुझको छोड़ के लौटा ही नहीं 

 जो अन्धेरें  में जिया हो,  वो कैसे आफताब हो जायेगा.    

  

मेरे  सीने में आज भी वही, सैलाब  उफन  के रूकता  नहीं

जो  दरिया  कभी  रूका  ही  नहीं, वो  कैसे समंदर  हो जायेगा.  

तेरे जाने के बाद भी , मैं  कभी ज़रा भी  सिसका  नहीं  

जो खुद  से ही न लड़ा हो , वो कैसे इन्कलाब हो जायेगा.

                                        

अंतःकरण

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  मौज -  लहर  / wave
  मृग मरीचिका   - Mirage

  आकर्षण - Attraction
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There are multitudes of questions we ask ourselves, some are oblivious and some are more complicated than others. But in general we usually overlook these obvious; we are so caught up in life that we never even think why we are doing something’s in life.

Have you asked yourself lately what the point is of trying to give your best all the time or of trying too hard in whatever area of your life that comes to mind? Faith and community, family, career, friends, your hair, wardrobe, the way you talk, your voice, your dance moves or guitar-playing prowess perhaps even when you're not really an entertainer, or even the photos you take?

When we do not see any meaning or any tangible result in trying, we naturally get discouraged. When nobody notices or gives a damn, we get discouraged. When we do not see any reward, we get discouraged. Given these, is it then all right to do or give less than what we know we can offer?

Some questions are unanswered because of intricacy of life; some are just the way it is.

Bottom line is if you are satisfied with it, live that moment of life as it comes, although it seems wrong to other people, just imagine they are just outsiders in this whole thought process and effort.

 

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जिस शहर में उकताहट हो , उस शहर में , मैं जाऊं क्यों 

जिस रास्ते में  कोई प्यासा न हो , उसमे उनका  प्याऊ क्यों?
  

जिस शहर में  कभी रात ही न हो , उस शहर में,  मैं जागूं क्यों
और जिन लोगों पे समय ही न हो ,  फिर उनसे ये  सब चर्चा  क्यों?   

जिस   महफ़िल  में मान न हो , उस महफ़िल में  शामिल क्यों 

जिस घर में दीवार न हो , उस दरवाजे  को मैं  खोलूँ  क्यों  ?

जिस दरिया में मौज न हो, उस दरिया में  कूदूं  क्यों 

और जिस जमीं पे बस  रेत ही  हो , उस जमी पे मैं  बरसूँ  क्यों ?

जिनके घर हैं  शीशे के, उनके घर में दर्पण  क्यों
और खुद  के बनाये रिश्ते , खून के रिश्तों से ऊंचे क्यों?

जो  समझें  रिश्ता  है प्यार की मिसाल, उनके भ्रम को में तोडूं क्यों 

बचपन के इस आकर्षण को , मात्र .. मृग मरीचिका  बोलूं क्यों ?

जिस रिश्ते में प्यार ही न हो, वो रिश्ता में तोडूं   क्यों 

और जो लौट के वापस आएगा , उसको मैं  जाने से  रोकूँ क्यों ?  

नफरत

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तकसीन  -  satisfaction/ peace
सानिध्य  -  to-be-together
तस्सवुर  -  imagination
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प्यार में नफरत,  खिलाफत है,  रूहानी  है

उसकी आजमाइश तो, एक नयी  कहानी है..

दूंढता  हूँ  जिसको,  मैं  हर  बार  खोकर..

उसकी नफरत तो,   बेपरवाह  नादानी है.  

हर बार जो दूर जाता  है, तकसीन इरादों से

उसकी ये जिद तो, बस अब आजमानी है

एक उम्र गुजरती है, जिसको इस कदर  पाने में
उसकी ये  अकड़ ,  तो  शायद हरकते  बचकानी है.

एक तस्सवुर सा  पाया था,  जिसमे एक बार  मैंने,
वही अमन  और  सानिध्य, क्या मिलना आसानी है ?. 

तू न भी लौटे तो , बस यही  सकून  रहेगा , सिर्फ  बाकी
कि तेरे खयालों में , ये बहते आंसू, दर्द  नहीं, सिर्फ पानी है.
  
  

अधूरापन

 सरकती  सुलगती .. संकीर्ण  राहों पर

 कभी न देखा वो,  उफनता समंदर

जहाँ  चाह वहां राह,  फिर भी अत्यंत  गुमराह

सरल सटीक राहों में , फिर क्यों  ये  हाहाकार..

                                                                  

                                                                  अनदेखी अनजानी ,  अनवरत    बेगानी
                                                                  शौम्य सहज राहों में, फिर क्यों हम बेजार.

                                                                 
                                                                   कुदरत का है कुटिल  किन्तु भ्रामक प्रहार            
                                                                   सहजते  संभलते पर ..फिर  भी हैं  लाचार..

                                                                  
                                                                   कुंचित  बिलम्ब  न हो जाए, समझते संभलते

                                                                   कि जब सुलझे   पहेली, कहीं  वो न हो आखिरी बार.